Sacred Grief

holding your grief as an invitation to go deeper

I’ve lost a lot of family and friends throughout my life. However, my experience with the death of my mom was very different than the other losses.

The first layer of the grieving was the traditional layer that I found referenced in many of the books, some of my favorites being On Death and Dying, On Grief and Grieving, The Wheel of Life. I went through the different stages of grief:

Shock and Denial, Pain and Guilt, Anger and Bargaining, Depression, Upward turn, Reconstruction, Acceptance and Hope.

While I felt a deep spiritual connection to my mom, there was some part of me that longed to feel her human arms around me, wished to hear her voice just one more time.

But I felt more than anything was a chord, a tether that I used to feel connecting me to this human experience, was no longer there.

In this untethering, I questioned everything in my life - what was real and what was not, who I was and who was I no longer, what served me and what did not.

I went through a phase where I had a freedom I hadn’t experienced in a long time. I knew that life was short and precious, and anything less than the love I felt for my mom, and I knew she felt for me, did not have space in my life.

But as I continued the grieving journey, another layer bubbled up the surface. A layer that could have only revealed itself once everything else in my life had sorted itself out.

And that layer was grieving myself. All of the ways I lost myself. And this is why it felt so untethered. There was more there than just grieving my loved one.

In this download, I’m sharing how to hold yourself and your grief as a sacred journey.